I Repent, Lord....

Lord, I repent! Thank you for sight! Thank you that I finally see rightly!

Since 2005 I have had a fire in my heart to be able to pray for people to be
Healed and to see it happen. The following is a little bit of how that came
About.

I was very new in a local church that is Charismatic. (I was from a Baptist background
…all of whom I still love very much!) One day the pastor told
us all to hold hands and pray for the person next to us for healing, or whatever
they needed. The woman next to me showed me her finger and asked me
to pray for the pain to stop and that she be healed. My first thought was,
“Oh Lord, You don’t want ME to pray for HER! Her finger might fall off!”
Obviously at that point, I knew nothing of God’s love and His will that all be
healed!

Then one evening that church had a lady come and speak in the evening service.
She taught us that “God Wants You Healed”. She talked about, “You’ve
Already Got It.” She spoke representing the ministry of Andrew Wommack.
I was overcome. I was changed and I couldn’t walk away and believe the
Same as I had. I soon went to an Andrew Wommack conference. I got to
Meet Andrew and he was so nice. I had been reading his books and
Listening to his teaching online. I could never go back to my old way of
Thinking.

In the mean time, I had joined the prayer team at my church. I was so
Nervous! I got several opportunities to pray for people for healing and
Several actually said they were healed. I was amazed. I would ask God
for a word for someone and MOST OF THE TIME He said “I just want
you to tell them that I love them with an everlasting love.” I was obedient,
but I was not feeling that I was doing enough. Over and over I went
forward and gave that word to so many…still feeling like it wasn’t enough.
I want more, Lord.

You see, I had LOTS of knowledge, LOTS of teaching which included an
almost 2 year long Bible Study with the woman who taught from A.W.'s
ministry...what I needed was a revelation! A revelation of God's amazing
LOVE for ALL MANKIND! I knew Jesus loves us, but I didn't REALLY understand
all that that meant! I knew of His GRACE, but then thought there was some
special THING that if I just KNEW WHAT IT WAS, there would be success!

What I repent of is, “not feeling like telling them God loves them with
An everlasting love was enough.” That is everything! It’s never ME doing
Anything…it’s ALWAYS His LOVE and that is ALWAYS enough!

There is no magic formula, there is only God’s love flowing through us.
The results are not my responsibility, but being a willing, open vessel for Him
to flow through is. It is His grace and His love and His power that comes
forth and does the work of healing. I will also not be offended or take up
the burden for healing that does not manifest. I will continue to go and
to pray and to rejoice in His work!

Lord, thank You for forgiveness, for mercy and grace, for all that You are
And do! Thank you for freedom from striving on our part and that it is ALL
YOU, Lord! We love You, because You first loved us, and You are my
All in all! I will pray for the sick to receive their healing and watch You do it,
Lord! I love You!

I agree with Chris Gore when he says, “We must redefine success. You are
a success when You step out and give away what God has given to you! We
serve a good God, Who is in a good mood, and His will is to heal every person!”

Thank You Lord! More Lord, more!
Teresa